[ The bright and eldritch flickers that seem to want to touch Charlie's skin strike a fear chord in his brain, but at this point, they strike it sideways, in a way that's exciting. Adrenaline is still the same adrenaline, whether it's summoned by panic or by exhilaration. And the way John's holding his gaze makes the flickering feel analogous to the hairs that are standing up on Charlie's skin, and that does things inside him that don't bear describing in polite company.
He catches his breath, slightly interrupting his count, though he's back in time on the next beat.
At first he follows carefully, at what one might call an 'I don't want to step on your feet' type distance. It's been a hot minute since he went dancing, so this turns out to be more for his sake than it is for John's. But he remembers the steps like he'd remember riding a bicycle, and John's a goddamn natural, so by the time they've done a full turn round the room his approach changes and the real dance begins. He's closer, eyes riveted on John's, moving forwards at the same speed but now doing it with intent. Their feet move as if controlled by one mind, only avoiding collision because both men are hitting their marks over and over. It's not following any more. It's a singleminded pursuit. ]
[ It's electric. All of this, every part. There's no music but the sway between them is music enough, and the feel of Charlie's hands in his-
He knows what he wants. He knows what he's wanted, how he wants, can only look at Charlie's face and think of when and how and how many times he wants to kiss him, look at his still-bare forearms and the hands entwined with his own and think of what they might feel like if they settled on his hips or slid across his chest or cupped his cheek. It makes him realize all suddenly very important things he doesn't know about Charlie. Like...
Would Charlie want to kiss him against the wall, press his body to his, hold him down, put him where he wants him? Put those hands everywhere and anywhere, curl in his hair or comb through it, take everything John would willingly give him?
Or does he want John to put his mouth and his hands to every inch of him, make pleasure where once a part of him caused pain, hold him down and make the world small and simple and good as he gives him anything he could ever want from a body?
Because he has no doubt at this point that Charlie wants. A suit covers many things, but it doesn't make this strange caged heat between them or allow the two of them to move like two pieces of a single whole. Charlie's voice is rough and low and if he thought in even the smallest part of him that he had the right to ask, to translate want to action, to decipher instead of waiting for a choice-
Jesus Christ, the dance they would do.
But even a single word, even saying Charlie's name, would be too much. It would ask of him, and he refuses to ask anything of substance from him. He'd even doubted he should ask about the suit until Charlie had seemed so eager to help.
But it's just as possible that Charlie is not ready to take that step. Whatever hungers he might have, whatever his thudding heart or his warm hands or even his well-adjusted belt might desire, it's Charlie's mind that he trespassed against and Charlie's mind that must be free to make its choice. All the control, every single bit of it: it has to be Charlie's.
Even if it's an exquisite kind of agony to dance with him, so close and yet so far, and feel as if all the roiling emotions inside of him might very well explode if he doesn't figure out something to do. ]
...No, that's a lie. He could take it indefinitely, compliment John on his dancing, let him go back to his cabin with his suit question answered, and then think and pace and wonder and take a cold shower and wonder. Nothing ventured, nothing lost.
He isn't as worried for their safety as he thought he'd be, because the Barge culture doesn't seem to be that way -- Arthur and Sheehan for one are shameless -- but it's been a really long time since a person he's slept with and a person he's friends with have been the same person, and god knows he's out of practice at it. And that's before you even bring in their history, or... not exactly their history, but... before you bring in the complications. He could take it.
He doesn't want to take it. And he doesn't think that John wants him to either. And he's not thinking with his whole brain at the moment -- at least not with the parts that like to remind him how much more this will make it hurt when one of them dies, or leaves, or thinks better of the arrangement.
He doesn't want to just take it. ]
...and stop, [ he finishes the count. But he doesn't stop until the step after John does, bringing them even closer, and John's chest is warm, and the hand on John's back becomes a hand at the nape of his neck, encouraging his head down. Still controlled: not urgently pulling like Charlie wants to.
Charlie's standing as tall as he can, and then on his toes to get a little taller, reaching up with his face. His mouth is held slightly open, wanting. He can't stop looking at John's.
He doesn't close the final inch. Nearly in a whisper, he asks his question again. ]
[ Charlie will find that John is infinitely easy to move, to nudge, to tug. He wants to go where Charlie urges, wants to be where Charlie wants him. The places where their skin touches feel like the connectors on a battery: all they do is send electricity down his spine and along his nerves.
Charlie's right there. Charlie's asking and he's right there. He hopes to whoever might be listening that when he speaks, when it's a low, heated growl of a thing, Charlie's hindbrain can tell the difference between the overwhelming want that's fueling every system in this traitorous body and something else.]
More... please.
[ He tries to find another word. But none of them are right. ]
[ Both egged on and relieved, Charlie makes a sound that falls short of becoming a word, and tugs John's head down that final breath so that their lips can meet. It's a long way from a chaste kiss. It's everything that was pent up during the dance where they touched but not enough, and more besides -- after all, this isn't the first time that Charlie has noticed John's a handsome man, only the first time the point has been pushed quite so aggressively. His other hand finally, finally goes to John's bare chest, and grabs it as if Charlie is planning to climb him like a rock face.
Whatever his hindbrain makes of John's growl, it quivers in delight about it. Something in him that reacted to the gold as it rolled through the sigils sits up, and attempts to comprehend the scope of the thing that's happening -- the god-creature of unnumbered age who wielded power like an icepick through the skull and whose other self is in every nightmare and whose power is still to Charlie's what a tsunami's is to a child's, is asking him desperately for more thing -- while the rest of him is busy shouting for John on a different level. This comprehension doesn't discourage him. In fact, it makes his head bubble with something that's honestly a bit feral. ]
[ John kisses like he does everything else: with all of himself, with nothing hidden, everything exposed. Lust is just another form of love here, and Charlie's beautiful hands and his lips and the body pressed up against his are just physical representations of his gentle, careful, sometimes-trembling touch, his shit-eating grins, the steady presence that he makes sure is there for him and for Arthur and anyone else who needs him.
The first noise he makes at finally being kissed is a desperate, wanton thing and once Charlie is kissing him, being kissed by him hungrily, that's when the growl that sits at the center of his chest returns.
His hands feel useless until he can get one into Charlie's hair, and a wrench in his middle tells him remember, record, savor him because he can't believe he'll get to have this again.
He finds their hips too far apart, remembers the dance from the club and settles his hips into a groove against Charlie and rocks, grinds, needs more sensation, more everything from him. ]
[ It spills out desperately against John's mouth when their hips meet, rolled into a single syllable. John's sounds and his hands and his body were already driving Charlie to distraction. He doesn't know what sort of experience John might have, if any, with the way he takes the world as if it has endless new things to show him -- but if he knows, then he knows, and if he doesn't then jesus, Charlie wants to show him.
If he actually lasts long enough to show him anything. Listen, there's a lot going on, and he'll never live it down if one half of this is over before either of them even has their clothes off. And there really doesn't seem to be any pressing reason to keep them on.
John's a smart lad who's perfectly capable of bending over under his own steam; Charlie slides his hand from the back of John's head to his ass, pulling him even closer and grinding too, panting into his mouth more than kissing him. But then he starts walking them backward -- from John's perspective -- as if dancing again, because there's a very nice wall there that John needs to be pushed against. Pushed against with some care, so as not to actually hurt him, but also-- pushed against aggressively.
It's aggressively that Charlie attacks the strings of the corset, too, though he's immediately frustrated, fiddling with it almost cross-eyed. How's he meant to concentrate on knots at a time like this--
With some stammered combination of comedy and desperation: ]
Aw hell... John, you- you gotta untie this or else I'm gettin' scissors.
[ John knows how it was tied because he tied it, so it's really just a matter of a tug here, a tug there. Then there's a very long tug to pull all the cord out before he tosses it to the ground for the moment so he can get his hands on Charlie's waist (fuck yes) and start tugging out his shirt to get beneath it.
The corset hangs open, now, revealing the bottom of his torso: lightly defined muscle and soft golden hair that thickens a little near the waistline. There's also unquestionably a heavy shape below that, straining against the fabric.]
[ Oh, would you look at that. Charlie's mouth goes dry, and then very not dry, and he swallows. ]
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
[ What he wants to do more than anything else in the world is mush his face against John's chest one nipple at a time and then work his way down, but he can exercise patience for a few seconds while John... what? Right, right, buttons. It would go faster if Charlie helped, but his hands are busy roaming around John's stomach and sides before moving to the button of his pants, and his eyes are busy staring a little lower.
No amount of tactical trouser adjusting would hide Charlie's own excitement at this point, either. John's absolutely doing him in. ]
[ Those fingers are very fast, but even in the mishmash feverdream of whatever's happening right now, Charlie will feel him undo every set of buttons, the flick of his fingertips sometimes light and sometimes sloppy against his stomach. Once the buttons are done, next is pushing the shirt open, away, and as soon as it's in a position for Charlie to take over in the removal process, it's onto the undershirt, which is getting shoved up so he can glide his hands over him, memorize this too.
As for Charlie's own project, John isn't shy: his hips tilt it so the button is easier to reach. Please. ]
[ It's the work of a moment to pull his undershirt the rest of the way off and fling it on the ground, so that he can feel more of John's hands on his skin -- then he's yanking down those ornate trousers, mouthing loud, hungry kisses onto John's belly before he looks down again.
Hopefully the trousers don't get a torn seam or anything. The smell from here is already sort of whiting out Charlie's higher functions. ]
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[ Every one of those kisses makes the muscles underneath twitch and flex and the softest little breath from John. It's overwhelming in the best kind of way and that's why he's almost unprepared for Charlie to pull down his trousers.
Almost. If it weren't for the way that suits sit, he might have had a real problem on his hands.
But thanks to the oddities of male fashion, Charlie does in fact have a cock staring him in the face, curling up and bouncing lightly against John's belly, brushing through the soft hair there. There's a heavy sac just below, right where it ought to be, and Charlie will no doubt be able to tell that that's where most of that smell happens to be coming from. Unsurprisingly, it is... appropriate to the size of the rest of him, uncut (as one might also expect), and leaking just a little at the tip.
John's hands, for lack of anything better to do, are going to end up against the wall to keep himself upright the normal way. ]
[ John's vocal enjoyment makes him shiver. Or maybe it's the forearm of a cock suddenly staring at him. Or maybe it's the news that John isn't wearing anything under his trousers, and maybe never is? All of the above and more are going to be prominent in Charlie's thoughts for a very long time.
He shoots John a smirk up his torso, a smirk of 'you ain't seen nothing yet' with a side of horny idiot. Then he dives and puts his mouth on the underside of it, letting his whole tongue sit on it, pulling at the skin with his lips, obsessed. A second later he moves up and gets the head in his mouth, a thumb running up the wet spot he left behind. He whines as if their positions were reversed as he rolls his tongue around the head, following the leak to its source until he's tonguing right at the slit. At some point along the way he's ended up on his knees, and they're going to hate him for it later, but they can suck it too.
He deserves a fucking service medal for pulling himself off and replacing his tongue with a circling thumb, but he wants to draw this out. He wants it to last. And he wants to look up at John's face from all this, and he wants to ask: ]
You ever had this done to you before?
[ Rough, and excited, and somehow steady even though his head feels like a lit catherine wheel. ]
[ John, fingers curled against the wall, head thrown back, cock shining and wet from Charlie's mouth looks like nothing so much as a debauched angel, the arcane symbols lit with gold and the flowing lines of the jacket looking almost like wings slumped in languid hedonism.
He has never had this done to him, no, because he's never had a dick during sex. Because he's never been inclined to let his partner focus so wholy on him. And because he's never been so focused on keeping his human form human at the same. It's almost like a type of bondage, holding himself this way, keeping every tentacle on his skin, and the way it makes him focus on all the human sensations and human nerve endings and human processes has brought to light a whole new appreciation for the human body he hadn't had before.
Which is to say, be looks almost drunk on how good that feels and looking down at Charlie, how gorgeous he looks hungry to suck his cock, lips a little reddened from their kissing and the aforementioned, a full body shiver goes through him at the intensity of his own feelings.
That whine, Christ. ]
No.
[ And that voice is rough, barely words in the low rumble. ]
[ John's answer makes Charlie's already heavy breath come out heavier, and he squeezes John's cock in reply, drawing his thumb up the underside of the head in a way he knows is good. And John's voice, the inhuman rumbling depths of it, is--
Frightening. But once again, the fear sparks strangely off of... all of this: off the way John's moving under his fingers and the way he asked for more, off the times Charlie's taught him something he never knew and the things he's about to teach him. John's flushed and beautiful, and behind that beautiful face is something fluid and dreadful that can look any way it wants, and he looks genuinely like he's unravelling and he's beautiful.
There are a lot of ideas fighting at speed through Charlie's head. Thousands of recollections of kneeling. A perverse idea of John and worship. How completely different this seems, as if Charlie's not beneath or smaller than him at all, even though both are physically true. How completely different he can make it. A hundred reasons to want to make John feel good, both repeatable and not. Incandescent desire.
Very few of those things are conscious. The thing that matters to be conscious of is the skin of John's belly -- warm and salty -- as he rakes his teeth across it, holding back from biting him like an animal. ]
Jesus, you're... you're...
[ His voice is strained this time, shaking slightly with want, words very clearly not wording. ]
Jesus. John.
[ He takes John's cock in his mouth like his life depends on it -- or, well, as much of his cock as will fit, his hand keeping the rest occupied. ]
[ The sound he makes isn't just obscene, it's Obsenity itself. Just as he is a creature of tattered cloth and dreams and nightmares, so too is he a thing of decadence and excess and no matter how human he is, the echo of that truth cannot be undone from him. It is good. It is all so very good, and the fact that it is Charlie, that Charlie wants this, wants him, would go on his knees and know that John would never ever keep him there-
His can't help that his hips rock for a moment before he can control himself, and one hand goes out to Charlie's hair, runs through it, settles not on top of it but just off to the side: a gesture of affection, not subjugation, of love and want and need and never force. The other hand shifts to his thigh, because he worries about Charlie's walls; he can only control so many things at once while he's feeling so intensely, and he'd rather clench against his own flesh than chance harming anything of or on or near Charlie. ]
Fuuuuck, Charlie. Christ, your fucking mouth.
[ He can still feel the teeth across his belly, Charlie's beautiful hands wrapped around the base of him. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. ]
[ He lavishes attention on John, hands and tongue and brushes of teeth, un-fucking-done by the noises coming out of John and the way he hums like an instrument that Charlie's playing. Once or twice he frees a hand to give himself a tug through his trousers, just to relieve the wound-up tension there.
When he feels things moving, John's sack pulling tighter, he thrills and pulls back just long enough to growl against John: ]
You're gonna cum for me.
[ It's not a question. John gets to go back in his mouth the moment he says yes, and not before. ]
[ He feels like his heart is a drum reverberating throughout his whole body and he's going to lose it regardless but something deep and wicked and curling in his belly wants Charlie's mouth around him when it happens more than anything.]
[ Charlie dives back onto him before the words are all out of his mouth -- because he's eager, because he wants John in his mouth when it happens too, and he's lightheaded from how forcefully John wants it. He swallows and moans around him, not letting up but driving him towards it. ]
[ He might have had some control if Charlie wasn't moaning around him, but the sound of that, the feel of it, the push pull of arousal and desperation between them has Charlie getting exactly what they both want as John lets out a deep and utterly inhuman sound of satisfaction that the words 'fuck' and 'yes' and 'Charlie' only surface from near the end as he does just that.
By the time he's finished, he doesn't feel drained so much as high and his eyes are practically glowing as he looks down hazily at Charlie. So many wires and so many of them are buzzing and he wants to-
Fuck he could-
He could lift this man into his arms and take that mouth and kiss him for days. He could rip every bit of clothing off of him and taste every inch revealed, fuck him-
Christ he could fuck him for weeks. Listen to him pant his name, beg for him, breathe for him. Wring every ounce of pleasure from him until he didn't even know his own name. Love him so thoroughly-
No.
Stop. No. Fuck. Goddammit.
Deep breaths. Deep breaths. Once his... everything is sorted, he ventures words. ]
Hey, can I- I want to kiss you. And suck your dick too. Can I? Please?
[ The noises John's making go through Charlie like thunder in a storm directly overhead. His nose is pressed into John's wiry hair, wet with spit, and he can feel the repeated clenching of muscles against his face. He swallows cum like it's wine, pulling and coaxing John through it, his heart jackhammering until John is spent and Charlie pulls back to gasp in air. John's cock is flushed and wet, and so is Charlie's mouth, and his satisfaction is immense even though his own body's screaming for attention at this point.
He's looking up hazily while John gathers himself, in between planting bites and touches on John's stomach and thighs. He's not quite ready to venture standing up and letting the blood back into his knees yet.
Holy shit. A lot to unpack about this and not a braincell to do it with.
Somewhere beyond his single-minded focus on taste and smell and sensation, he notices how careful John's being with him, even now, and he's reassured by it. Somewhere closer to home and much dumber, he thinks that if John doesn't kiss him and suck his dick right now instead of just asking about them then he's going to lose his mind. ]
Oh f-fuck, yeah, yeah, John.
[ The grunt and wobble when he gets to his feet, though, are symptoms of his joints rather than his horniness. Such is life. ]
[ Charlie's knees will not have much to do for long because John is going to reach over and bodily lift him up, one hand on his ass and the other on his side, to start kissing him into the opposite wall like a rabid thing even as his hips move to grind against poor Charlie's yet unattended to excitement.
The wall kiss will only last until John is sated enough to move him, and then they're headed for Charlie's bedroom on autopilot. His human companion might be surprised at how gently he can get him lowered to the bed while attempting to find Charlie's tonsils with his own tongue, but once he's on that bed, John's going for clothes.
Trousers first, if only because he can keep kissing him while he's at it.]
[ Charlie's surprised squeak at being lifted turns incredibly quickly into open-mouthed moans and deep kisses. Now he knows how the table felt, and it's great!
He's panting, moving his hips, genuinely concerned that the grinding of John's massive dick holy shit against him is about to take things too far too soon but enjoying it too much to say anything about slowing down (in a second he'll-- he'll say something in a second, in-- in another second--). Getting bodily carried to the bed barely counts as a reprieve, because look at it.
When John pulls his trousers down, they drag over the rigid shape underneath and make Charlie whine and swear with surprising clarity considering his tongue is fully inside John's mouth. If John happens to look down, he'll find Charlie's underwear does absolutely nothing to hide how erect he's gotten.
Charlie, meanwhile, finally turns his face just far enough to clear the way to stammer breathlessly: ]
Please, I... q-quick, I dunno if I can... I dunno how long I, I... please please please.
Breathless. For him. Fuck, he did not need help being turned on. He was well and truly turned on already, thank you, but hearing that?
He'll give Charlie one last kiss before practically dropping down: one hand pulling his dick free as he swoops down to get his mouth around the head, swirl his tongue around it once, and then the whole of Charlie's cock is disappearing past his lips and down his throat as John gives a deep rumbling sound of relief. Like hell was he not getting Charlie in his mouth before it was too late. One large hand will shove the underwear the rest of the way away to give his sac a light knead.
Which is when he'll start swallowing. And he won't stop. Nor, it turns out, does he need to pause to breathe.]
Charlie resists the urge to slam into John's mouth, using just about the last thread of his self control -- but he does push up, incrementally, insistently, wanting more of that - of - holy fuck. With a hand on John's shoulder and another in his hair, he groans and pants and shakes. He's talking like he can't stop himself, but the only words he can manage are strings of fuckpleaseyesmore -- lustful, unthinking, worshipful -- and John's name -- in a tone exactly the same.
An unsleeping watchman is blowing his whistle, urgently, violently, louder and louder, though it's taken Charlie this long to notice the warning. It's the only warning so far that hasn't somehow egged him on, because it's the same one that wakes him up over and over when he tries to go to sleep at night. His breath catches, but it's just one caught breath among many, and the watchman is just one passenger in the boat as it finally goes over the falls. ]
I'm- I'm- I'm-
[ Ah fuck it's too late to warn John before Charlie is over the edge in an ecstasy of whimpered sounds, of babbling John's name, of bucking under him and only half-managing to hold the movement back. ]
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He catches his breath, slightly interrupting his count, though he's back in time on the next beat.
At first he follows carefully, at what one might call an 'I don't want to step on your feet' type distance. It's been a hot minute since he went dancing, so this turns out to be more for his sake than it is for John's. But he remembers the steps like he'd remember riding a bicycle, and John's a goddamn natural, so by the time they've done a full turn round the room his approach changes and the real dance begins. He's closer, eyes riveted on John's, moving forwards at the same speed but now doing it with intent. Their feet move as if controlled by one mind, only avoiding collision because both men are hitting their marks over and over. It's not following any more. It's a singleminded pursuit. ]
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He knows what he wants. He knows what he's wanted, how he wants, can only look at Charlie's face and think of when and how and how many times he wants to kiss him, look at his still-bare forearms and the hands entwined with his own and think of what they might feel like if they settled on his hips or slid across his chest or cupped his cheek. It makes him realize all suddenly very important things he doesn't know about Charlie. Like...
Would Charlie want to kiss him against the wall, press his body to his, hold him down, put him where he wants him? Put those hands everywhere and anywhere, curl in his hair or comb through it, take everything John would willingly give him?
Or does he want John to put his mouth and his hands to every inch of him, make pleasure where once a part of him caused pain, hold him down and make the world small and simple and good as he gives him anything he could ever want from a body?
Because he has no doubt at this point that Charlie wants. A suit covers many things, but it doesn't make this strange caged heat between them or allow the two of them to move like two pieces of a single whole. Charlie's voice is rough and low and if he thought in even the smallest part of him that he had the right to ask, to translate want to action, to decipher instead of waiting for a choice-
Jesus Christ, the dance they would do.
But even a single word, even saying Charlie's name, would be too much. It would ask of him, and he refuses to ask anything of substance from him. He'd even doubted he should ask about the suit until Charlie had seemed so eager to help.
But it's just as possible that Charlie is not ready to take that step. Whatever hungers he might have, whatever his thudding heart or his warm hands or even his well-adjusted belt might desire, it's Charlie's mind that he trespassed against and Charlie's mind that must be free to make its choice. All the control, every single bit of it: it has to be Charlie's.
Even if it's an exquisite kind of agony to dance with him, so close and yet so far, and feel as if all the roiling emotions inside of him might very well explode if he doesn't figure out something to do. ]
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...No, that's a lie. He could take it indefinitely, compliment John on his dancing, let him go back to his cabin with his suit question answered, and then think and pace and wonder and take a cold shower and wonder. Nothing ventured, nothing lost.
He isn't as worried for their safety as he thought he'd be, because the Barge culture doesn't seem to be that way -- Arthur and Sheehan for one are shameless -- but it's been a really long time since a person he's slept with and a person he's friends with have been the same person, and god knows he's out of practice at it. And that's before you even bring in their history, or... not exactly their history, but... before you bring in the complications. He could take it.
He doesn't want to take it. And he doesn't think that John wants him to either. And he's not thinking with his whole brain at the moment -- at least not with the parts that like to remind him how much more this will make it hurt when one of them dies, or leaves, or thinks better of the arrangement.
He doesn't want to just take it. ]
...and stop, [ he finishes the count. But he doesn't stop until the step after John does, bringing them even closer, and John's chest is warm, and the hand on John's back becomes a hand at the nape of his neck, encouraging his head down. Still controlled: not urgently pulling like Charlie wants to.
Charlie's standing as tall as he can, and then on his toes to get a little taller, reaching up with his face. His mouth is held slightly open, wanting. He can't stop looking at John's.
He doesn't close the final inch. Nearly in a whisper, he asks his question again. ]
This okay?
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Charlie's right there. Charlie's asking and he's right there. He hopes to whoever might be listening that when he speaks, when it's a low, heated growl of a thing, Charlie's hindbrain can tell the difference between the overwhelming want that's fueling every system in this traitorous body and something else.]
More... please.
[ He tries to find another word. But none of them are right. ]
Please.
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Whatever his hindbrain makes of John's growl, it quivers in delight about it. Something in him that reacted to the gold as it rolled through the sigils sits up, and attempts to comprehend the scope of the thing that's happening -- the god-creature of unnumbered age who wielded power like an icepick through the skull and whose other self is in every nightmare and whose power is still to Charlie's what a tsunami's is to a child's, is asking him desperately for more thing -- while the rest of him is busy shouting for John on a different level. This comprehension doesn't discourage him. In fact, it makes his head bubble with something that's honestly a bit feral. ]
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The first noise he makes at finally being kissed is a desperate, wanton thing and once Charlie is kissing him, being kissed by him hungrily, that's when the growl that sits at the center of his chest returns.
His hands feel useless until he can get one into Charlie's hair, and a wrench in his middle tells him remember, record, savor him because he can't believe he'll get to have this again.
He finds their hips too far apart, remembers the dance from the club and settles his hips into a groove against Charlie and rocks, grinds, needs more sensation, more everything from him. ]
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[ It spills out desperately against John's mouth when their hips meet, rolled into a single syllable. John's sounds and his hands and his body were already driving Charlie to distraction. He doesn't know what sort of experience John might have, if any, with the way he takes the world as if it has endless new things to show him -- but if he knows, then he knows, and if he doesn't then jesus, Charlie wants to show him.
If he actually lasts long enough to show him anything. Listen, there's a lot going on, and he'll never live it down if one half of this is over before either of them even has their clothes off. And there really doesn't seem to be any pressing reason to keep them on.
John's a smart lad who's perfectly capable of bending over under his own steam; Charlie slides his hand from the back of John's head to his ass, pulling him even closer and grinding too, panting into his mouth more than kissing him. But then he starts walking them backward -- from John's perspective -- as if dancing again, because there's a very nice wall there that John needs to be pushed against. Pushed against with some care, so as not to actually hurt him, but also-- pushed against aggressively.
It's aggressively that Charlie attacks the strings of the corset, too, though he's immediately frustrated, fiddling with it almost cross-eyed. How's he meant to concentrate on knots at a time like this--
With some stammered combination of comedy and desperation: ]
Aw hell... John, you- you gotta untie this or else I'm gettin' scissors.
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The corset hangs open, now, revealing the bottom of his torso: lightly defined muscle and soft golden hair that thickens a little near the waistline. There's also unquestionably a heavy shape below that, straining against the fabric.]
Fixed. Can I-
[ Shirt. He wants to unbutton shirt. ]
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Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
[ What he wants to do more than anything else in the world is mush his face against John's chest one nipple at a time and then work his way down, but he can exercise patience for a few seconds while John... what? Right, right, buttons. It would go faster if Charlie helped, but his hands are busy roaming around John's stomach and sides before moving to the button of his pants, and his eyes are busy staring a little lower.
No amount of tactical trouser adjusting would hide Charlie's own excitement at this point, either. John's absolutely doing him in. ]
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As for Charlie's own project, John isn't shy: his hips tilt it so the button is easier to reach. Please. ]
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Hopefully the trousers don't get a torn seam or anything. The smell from here is already sort of whiting out Charlie's higher functions. ]
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Almost. If it weren't for the way that suits sit, he might have had a real problem on his hands.
But thanks to the oddities of male fashion, Charlie does in fact have a cock staring him in the face, curling up and bouncing lightly against John's belly, brushing through the soft hair there. There's a heavy sac just below, right where it ought to be, and Charlie will no doubt be able to tell that that's where most of that smell happens to be coming from. Unsurprisingly, it is... appropriate to the size of the rest of him, uncut (as one might also expect), and leaking just a little at the tip.
John's hands, for lack of anything better to do, are going to end up against the wall to keep himself upright the normal way. ]
...fuck, you feel so good.
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He shoots John a smirk up his torso, a smirk of 'you ain't seen nothing yet' with a side of horny idiot. Then he dives and puts his mouth on the underside of it, letting his whole tongue sit on it, pulling at the skin with his lips, obsessed. A second later he moves up and gets the head in his mouth, a thumb running up the wet spot he left behind. He whines as if their positions were reversed as he rolls his tongue around the head, following the leak to its source until he's tonguing right at the slit. At some point along the way he's ended up on his knees, and they're going to hate him for it later, but they can suck it too.
He deserves a fucking service medal for pulling himself off and replacing his tongue with a circling thumb, but he wants to draw this out. He wants it to last. And he wants to look up at John's face from all this, and he wants to ask: ]
You ever had this done to you before?
[ Rough, and excited, and somehow steady even though his head feels like a lit catherine wheel. ]
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He has never had this done to him, no, because he's never had a dick during sex. Because he's never been inclined to let his partner focus so wholy on him. And because he's never been so focused on keeping his human form human at the same. It's almost like a type of bondage, holding himself this way, keeping every tentacle on his skin, and the way it makes him focus on all the human sensations and human nerve endings and human processes has brought to light a whole new appreciation for the human body he hadn't had before.
Which is to say, be looks almost drunk on how good that feels and looking down at Charlie, how gorgeous he looks hungry to suck his cock, lips a little reddened from their kissing and the aforementioned, a full body shiver goes through him at the intensity of his own feelings.
That whine, Christ. ]
No.
[ And that voice is rough, barely words in the low rumble. ]
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Frightening. But once again, the fear sparks strangely off of... all of this: off the way John's moving under his fingers and the way he asked for more, off the times Charlie's taught him something he never knew and the things he's about to teach him. John's flushed and beautiful, and behind that beautiful face is something fluid and dreadful that can look any way it wants, and he looks genuinely like he's unravelling and he's beautiful.
There are a lot of ideas fighting at speed through Charlie's head. Thousands of recollections of kneeling. A perverse idea of John and worship. How completely different this seems, as if Charlie's not beneath or smaller than him at all, even though both are physically true. How completely different he can make it. A hundred reasons to want to make John feel good, both repeatable and not. Incandescent desire.
Very few of those things are conscious. The thing that matters to be conscious of is the skin of John's belly -- warm and salty -- as he rakes his teeth across it, holding back from biting him like an animal. ]
Jesus, you're... you're...
[ His voice is strained this time, shaking slightly with want, words very clearly not wording. ]
Jesus. John.
[ He takes John's cock in his mouth like his life depends on it -- or, well, as much of his cock as will fit, his hand keeping the rest occupied. ]
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His can't help that his hips rock for a moment before he can control himself, and one hand goes out to Charlie's hair, runs through it, settles not on top of it but just off to the side: a gesture of affection, not subjugation, of love and want and need and never force. The other hand shifts to his thigh, because he worries about Charlie's walls; he can only control so many things at once while he's feeling so intensely, and he'd rather clench against his own flesh than chance harming anything of or on or near Charlie. ]
Fuuuuck, Charlie. Christ, your fucking mouth.
[ He can still feel the teeth across his belly, Charlie's beautiful hands wrapped around the base of him. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. ]
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When he feels things moving, John's sack pulling tighter, he thrills and pulls back just long enough to growl against John: ]
You're gonna cum for me.
[ It's not a question. John gets to go back in his mouth the moment he says yes, and not before. ]
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Jesus fucking Christ, Charlie-
[ A growl as he finds the word. ]
Yes, fuck yes. Fuck- I'm gonna fuckin- please, Christ, Charlie-
[ He feels like his heart is a drum reverberating throughout his whole body and he's going to lose it regardless but something deep and wicked and curling in his belly wants Charlie's mouth around him when it happens more than anything.]
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By the time he's finished, he doesn't feel drained so much as high and his eyes are practically glowing as he looks down hazily at Charlie. So many wires and so many of them are buzzing and he wants to-
Fuck he could-
He could lift this man into his arms and take that mouth and kiss him for days. He could rip every bit of clothing off of him and taste every inch revealed, fuck him-
Christ he could fuck him for weeks. Listen to him pant his name, beg for him, breathe for him. Wring every ounce of pleasure from him until he didn't even know his own name. Love him so thoroughly-
No.
Stop. No. Fuck. Goddammit.
Deep breaths. Deep breaths. Once his... everything is sorted, he ventures words. ]
Hey, can I- I want to kiss you. And suck your dick too. Can I? Please?
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He's looking up hazily while John gathers himself, in between planting bites and touches on John's stomach and thighs. He's not quite ready to venture standing up and letting the blood back into his knees yet.
Holy shit. A lot to unpack about this and not a braincell to do it with.
Somewhere beyond his single-minded focus on taste and smell and sensation, he notices how careful John's being with him, even now, and he's reassured by it. Somewhere closer to home and much dumber, he thinks that if John doesn't kiss him and suck his dick right now instead of just asking about them then he's going to lose his mind. ]
Oh f-fuck, yeah, yeah, John.
[ The grunt and wobble when he gets to his feet, though, are symptoms of his joints rather than his horniness. Such is life. ]
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The wall kiss will only last until John is sated enough to move him, and then they're headed for Charlie's bedroom on autopilot. His human companion might be surprised at how gently he can get him lowered to the bed while attempting to find Charlie's tonsils with his own tongue, but once he's on that bed, John's going for clothes.
Trousers first, if only because he can keep kissing him while he's at it.]
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He's panting, moving his hips, genuinely concerned that the grinding of John's massive dick holy shit against him is about to take things too far too soon but enjoying it too much to say anything about slowing down (in a second he'll-- he'll say something in a second, in-- in another second--). Getting bodily carried to the bed barely counts as a reprieve, because look at it.
When John pulls his trousers down, they drag over the rigid shape underneath and make Charlie whine and swear with surprising clarity considering his tongue is fully inside John's mouth. If John happens to look down, he'll find Charlie's underwear does absolutely nothing to hide how erect he's gotten.
Charlie, meanwhile, finally turns his face just far enough to clear the way to stammer breathlessly: ]
Please, I... q-quick, I dunno if I can... I dunno how long I, I... please please please.
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Breathless. For him. Fuck, he did not need help being turned on. He was well and truly turned on already, thank you, but hearing that?
He'll give Charlie one last kiss before practically dropping down: one hand pulling his dick free as he swoops down to get his mouth around the head, swirl his tongue around it once, and then the whole of Charlie's cock is disappearing past his lips and down his throat as John gives a deep rumbling sound of relief. Like hell was he not getting Charlie in his mouth before it was too late. One large hand will shove the underwear the rest of the way away to give his sac a light knead.
Which is when he'll start swallowing. And he won't stop. Nor, it turns out, does he need to pause to breathe.]
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Charlie resists the urge to slam into John's mouth, using just about the last thread of his self control -- but he does push up, incrementally, insistently, wanting more of that - of - holy fuck. With a hand on John's shoulder and another in his hair, he groans and pants and shakes. He's talking like he can't stop himself, but the only words he can manage are strings of fuckpleaseyesmore -- lustful, unthinking, worshipful -- and John's name -- in a tone exactly the same.
An unsleeping watchman is blowing his whistle, urgently, violently, louder and louder, though it's taken Charlie this long to notice the warning. It's the only warning so far that hasn't somehow egged him on, because it's the same one that wakes him up over and over when he tries to go to sleep at night. His breath catches, but it's just one caught breath among many, and the watchman is just one passenger in the boat as it finally goes over the falls. ]
I'm- I'm- I'm-
[ Ah fuck it's too late to warn John before Charlie is over the edge in an ecstasy of whimpered sounds, of babbling John's name, of bucking under him and only half-managing to hold the movement back. ]
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